If it's not one thing, it's another

Everything was going super well. Honestly, I don’t think I’d ever felt so confident until 4:55 pm yesterday (before then I had even gotten a so-so from Sensei the day before – which loosely translate to “you understand what I taught and you are now performing the technique satisfactory enough for me to not correct you). Anyways, just before 5 Sensei told us to do light sparing. I did as I was told. He walked around and ended near Sara and I. He watched us for what seemed like forever. And stopped us. Told me I shouldn’t move back so much and move to the side. At least it wasn’t “BLOCK YOUR FACE”. So we keep on fighting, he goes around and comes back and watches us for another eternity. Stops us and tells me to make the distance between us smaller. Laughs and walks away. God, that’s not a good sign. He didn’t watch anyone else. Sempai said he was watching Sara more than me, since he doesn’t really know her. Although I think that is some what true, I think he was also watching me. Seriously, that was heartbreaking because I know for one thing Sensei doesn’t just make up his decision regarding grading in those two hours (2:30 – 4:30 today), he watches you the whole time he’s here. So yeah, I was a bit upset yesterday. I still don’t know who my partner will be and now there’s three people I could potentially be fighting with. My goal for today is not to have him yell at me about my fighting, which is the last thing on the grading. So I just have to get through everything okay and then do super awesome in the fighting portion. We’ll see.

I wrote this on 11 February 07 when I was feeling .

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  1. ali says,

    you were especially mean to me. =( I almost cried!

  2. sh!ma says,

    Yes, I know. I’m sorry. Instead of this post, I was actually going to write about how I can be a insensitive bitch sometimes.

 
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